cny huh. this yr more to wad i want, go down grandma hse rot a little while, shortest time this yr, hide in the room haha hide finish come out jiu zao go home, rot cny away. dota and naruto like crazy, watch a bit of tv here and there. peaceful cny indeed, but feels abit empty haha but its my wish anyway. sunday attempted to bbal but rain so too bad. this cny is much more n o feeling then last yr, i felt totally nth at all sia, nt awkward or scared or paiseh like the previous yrs when i c my relatives, just greet them with a handshake and a fake smile. seems like my bro is more enthu. even my cousin seems more enthu.
anw been reading naruto alot this few days, i shld say is a bit inspiring naruto. c naruto's spirit, and particularly lee's hard work and all. but still motivational things/quotes, i nv believed them anyway. and they all have special traits/talent/genius/bloodline/sealed monsters in them, so they were elite in the first place, no one purely peaseant from the beginning, maybe sakura was the most peasant among them. i think lthe comic also say lee was a genius, he can open the 8 gates.
back to work tml after the damn long weekend, wish there were more of these long weekends haha. end of january soon, ord closer liao loo.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
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bball again today. stamina just as cui. dribbling and shooting nt much chance, but is cui nevertheless. nt there when i need it. pass can pass abit harder i think. haiz week after week, nt much improvement. but of course just once a week each week makes nt much diff.
anw. after bball rot ard in wil hse watch naruto after that watch zheng ren / beaststalker. hai hao. after that jiu zao liao.
wad else this week. hmm office well nth much, this week seems to pass by faster. nt much gan xiang this week as well, or i think i forgot wad i wanted to say le. hmmm today go wil hse c her facebook, haiz lol. jiu like dat lor. haiz. all my wishful thinking from the start. next time if there is a next time, will hold back le.
haiz. emoing is easy cos can just emo about things and no need to think how to improve / solve. no wonder many ppl like to emo. and drink.
haiz off to dota, cny coming soon, need to c relatives and fu yan them again cum awkard situation plus stone. but this yr tv got alot nice show, guess will be staying at home rot.
anw. after bball rot ard in wil hse watch naruto after that watch zheng ren / beaststalker. hai hao. after that jiu zao liao.
wad else this week. hmm office well nth much, this week seems to pass by faster. nt much gan xiang this week as well, or i think i forgot wad i wanted to say le. hmmm today go wil hse c her facebook, haiz lol. jiu like dat lor. haiz. all my wishful thinking from the start. next time if there is a next time, will hold back le.
haiz. emoing is easy cos can just emo about things and no need to think how to improve / solve. no wonder many ppl like to emo. and drink.
haiz off to dota, cny coming soon, need to c relatives and fu yan them again cum awkard situation plus stone. but this yr tv got alot nice show, guess will be staying at home rot.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
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bballed today, quite fun, shooting seemed to improved just a little, didnt have much chance to dribble and pass too, so cant really tell. speedwise seemed to have decreased though, endurance also seemed to dropped, or maybe they are just faster by abit. Maybe one week of inactivity have taken its toll. after that rot awhile in wil hse, stalk ppl abit, then went amk pool, not much change lol. now im blogging alr.
face skin cui, everyday new wounds again damn. at least body is ok.
anw haiz nowadays coming home walking back to house, look at the sky, the surroundings, so big so wide. seems like so little time to c all this sia. play finish crisis core, the story ok la abit sad, but hear the background music, more emo sia. thinking about how emo the music is, listening to it, thinking abou the ppl around me, my life, my skin, bball, future career, so many things, so many unknown. i dun really noe wad i want animore haha. think about the book in feeling, recapping the feeling , feels horrible ugh. feel like i havnt c the world enough yet sia, havnt experince enough, havnt feel enough, havnt know enough havnt life enough yet. but sths can be so lazy to live, just wasting time. thinking abou tmy job next time, engineer work long hours nt so gd pay, maybe burn sat as well, then where will have time to live life with my job. next time must try to find a more slack engineer job that wun burn weekends haha. or go up to management, which i think im nt suitable. hiaz think about the music, so beautiful, the scenery also nt bad, all the green and all, than think about wad actually is beautiful, wad do i noe about this, think about many things jiu dui le haha.
haiz feel sth wrong somewhere haha. i think i perform better in a group than solo haha, like in co im one of the better one in the big group, but in jc my section damn small, i cui alr. gain strenth/ support from people around me, even if they dun need to do anything, just their presence makes a diff, alr. so maybe i feel lonely rite now, everyday in the office only got 2 other nsf, one which i despise alr due to fucked up attitude. but last time stay in also feel lonely leh, even thought got camp frens, maybe lost touch with civi world also feels lonely.
last time sec 4 i think was my most happy time haha, with a huge clique like half the class, originally was wil tan, me kr, matthew aloy zheng cong guo hui vincent this ppl, then after sitting at the back at sec 4, got to know danny ming hui ambrose this, and the whole clique merge or sth. tok cok gamble go lan dota maple tgt, life was fun. or maybe i havnt grow up yet last time. jc 1 near end and jc 2 first few months also quite happy, cos keep toking to her haha. after that haiz go down the drain. haiz i think uni life may be lonely, as like dun have fixed classes and all, hard ot make frens. jc alr nt very happy with the class le, cos the clique stick so damn close to each harder and never mix, dun have bonding de lo, want bond ler and ken always pon how bond, j2 they force sitting plan then bond abit at the back with yihong ade and kahyan abit, then get to know their clique abit liao. also co ade right infront of me so got talk. but still damn hard to make one big group like back in cat high, one big clique sing song talk cok play then o levels all gan chiong tgt study, and when one person exam do well all will like bully/tease/play abit for fun that type. jc wah lau abit stress sia like everyone beneath all wan to climb to the top like power struggle like that, cannot lose cannot lose like that, so full of motives, nt like sec so pure/naive. next time in life, even worse alr, ppl wan promote, gou xin dou jiao, how to find such frens alr. my office for example is a dman fucked up gou xin dou jiao place alr, ppl all stabbing in eac other's back, they tell us nsfs cos we like harmless and dun get involved, maybe just their punching bag haha. no wonder nowadays ppl rather play with computer than have social interactions, a com have no intentions behind, or wan to suan u or make sacarstic remarks or take over ur job all these, nt like humans, have to defend against ppl.
now i think im just wasting my 2 years haha, or rather just learning office relations, how to get along with ppl in the office, all the office skills ba, then come back home jiu just relag and play psp, like abit wasting my 2 years haha. nt doing anything productive haha, nt upgrading myself like learning driving or studying or sth. just feel lazy, just wan to slack sia. and not interested in driving as well, but seems like i have to learn it sia. i think the past me wouldnt have mind slacking haha, but her hardworking traits have rubbed off/on me, now like slack will feel abit guilty or sth, like cannot slack must keep working like that.
haiz i also dunno wad im writing alr, go prepare dota le.
face skin cui, everyday new wounds again damn. at least body is ok.
anw haiz nowadays coming home walking back to house, look at the sky, the surroundings, so big so wide. seems like so little time to c all this sia. play finish crisis core, the story ok la abit sad, but hear the background music, more emo sia. thinking about how emo the music is, listening to it, thinking abou the ppl around me, my life, my skin, bball, future career, so many things, so many unknown. i dun really noe wad i want animore haha. think about the book in feeling, recapping the feeling , feels horrible ugh. feel like i havnt c the world enough yet sia, havnt experince enough, havnt feel enough, havnt know enough havnt life enough yet. but sths can be so lazy to live, just wasting time. thinking abou tmy job next time, engineer work long hours nt so gd pay, maybe burn sat as well, then where will have time to live life with my job. next time must try to find a more slack engineer job that wun burn weekends haha. or go up to management, which i think im nt suitable. hiaz think about the music, so beautiful, the scenery also nt bad, all the green and all, than think about wad actually is beautiful, wad do i noe about this, think about many things jiu dui le haha.
haiz feel sth wrong somewhere haha. i think i perform better in a group than solo haha, like in co im one of the better one in the big group, but in jc my section damn small, i cui alr. gain strenth/ support from people around me, even if they dun need to do anything, just their presence makes a diff, alr. so maybe i feel lonely rite now, everyday in the office only got 2 other nsf, one which i despise alr due to fucked up attitude. but last time stay in also feel lonely leh, even thought got camp frens, maybe lost touch with civi world also feels lonely.
last time sec 4 i think was my most happy time haha, with a huge clique like half the class, originally was wil tan, me kr, matthew aloy zheng cong guo hui vincent this ppl, then after sitting at the back at sec 4, got to know danny ming hui ambrose this, and the whole clique merge or sth. tok cok gamble go lan dota maple tgt, life was fun. or maybe i havnt grow up yet last time. jc 1 near end and jc 2 first few months also quite happy, cos keep toking to her haha. after that haiz go down the drain. haiz i think uni life may be lonely, as like dun have fixed classes and all, hard ot make frens. jc alr nt very happy with the class le, cos the clique stick so damn close to each harder and never mix, dun have bonding de lo, want bond ler and ken always pon how bond, j2 they force sitting plan then bond abit at the back with yihong ade and kahyan abit, then get to know their clique abit liao. also co ade right infront of me so got talk. but still damn hard to make one big group like back in cat high, one big clique sing song talk cok play then o levels all gan chiong tgt study, and when one person exam do well all will like bully/tease/play abit for fun that type. jc wah lau abit stress sia like everyone beneath all wan to climb to the top like power struggle like that, cannot lose cannot lose like that, so full of motives, nt like sec so pure/naive. next time in life, even worse alr, ppl wan promote, gou xin dou jiao, how to find such frens alr. my office for example is a dman fucked up gou xin dou jiao place alr, ppl all stabbing in eac other's back, they tell us nsfs cos we like harmless and dun get involved, maybe just their punching bag haha. no wonder nowadays ppl rather play with computer than have social interactions, a com have no intentions behind, or wan to suan u or make sacarstic remarks or take over ur job all these, nt like humans, have to defend against ppl.
now i think im just wasting my 2 years haha, or rather just learning office relations, how to get along with ppl in the office, all the office skills ba, then come back home jiu just relag and play psp, like abit wasting my 2 years haha. nt doing anything productive haha, nt upgrading myself like learning driving or studying or sth. just feel lazy, just wan to slack sia. and not interested in driving as well, but seems like i have to learn it sia. i think the past me wouldnt have mind slacking haha, but her hardworking traits have rubbed off/on me, now like slack will feel abit guilty or sth, like cannot slack must keep working like that.
haiz i also dunno wad im writing alr, go prepare dota le.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
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lol seeing ks nick, heart shattered and all the shit, haha so emo sia. sort of undertand how he feels. saw her facebook, she got a bf alr liao. considering her nick and all, not that surprising. that marks an end to this ba. 之能远远看你liao haha. ks still has a heart to be shattered but i dun anymore. now more like my skin shattering damnit. if i heal by this weekend maybe i will go buy bball alr. then wil they all may come to my hse here bball. well back to star wars, enough of thinking
Thursday, January 1, 2009
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well blogging again due to new year. a short recap, new yr eve find pks ken ler xings go seoul makan abit, ken buy shirt then zao home -.-. outing more and more cui, always eat le then zao home, last time always go arcade haha. go home watch abit of countdown on tv and downstairs de concert, then watch dao huo xian then slp. new year bballed, then go wil hse watch 10 promise to my dog and sex is zero 2. haha i like bballing 3v3, got space, nt so tiring as full court where physical matters so much. feel like improve a very little bit more, got to work on my pass, must make it a point to pass harder and faster, but no strength always. and must also make it a point to look up when trying to dribble past, nt stare at the floor.
anyway. new year sia. last time always dread new year, cos means holidays is over, another year of work again. well this year feels abit like, with all the leaves and holidays in november and december end le, another year of work. but one more year to ord, so not bad. last year new year, still need to book in, the feeling was damn fucked up. lol the book in feeling. hate it. thank god i know no need to, or i will be tearing as i bath. and emo like shit.
oh ya bok also have gf liao sia. lol. who would have known he will have gotten one earlier than everyone else. everyone was like making fun of him suan him haha. and he looks like so into it, so serious. the 10 promises to my dog was rather touching too lol, seeing the warmth in the family, to the dog, makes me feel both guilty, helpless and a bit of bo chap as well haha. and the sex is zero at the back the guy sacrifice himself, also quite touching as well. come to think of it im a idiot sia during a's that time wad if i screwed my a's becos of her, wad if i affected her a's results also with my selfish behaviour that time. end up she got str8 a's proves that i make no difference and also have no impact on her as well haha. oh well. bball and my skin is my priority now ba. but lol i think next time sch team will only be a dream lol.
anyway. new year sia. last time always dread new year, cos means holidays is over, another year of work again. well this year feels abit like, with all the leaves and holidays in november and december end le, another year of work. but one more year to ord, so not bad. last year new year, still need to book in, the feeling was damn fucked up. lol the book in feeling. hate it. thank god i know no need to, or i will be tearing as i bath. and emo like shit.
oh ya bok also have gf liao sia. lol. who would have known he will have gotten one earlier than everyone else. everyone was like making fun of him suan him haha. and he looks like so into it, so serious. the 10 promises to my dog was rather touching too lol, seeing the warmth in the family, to the dog, makes me feel both guilty, helpless and a bit of bo chap as well haha. and the sex is zero at the back the guy sacrifice himself, also quite touching as well. come to think of it im a idiot sia during a's that time wad if i screwed my a's becos of her, wad if i affected her a's results also with my selfish behaviour that time. end up she got str8 a's proves that i make no difference and also have no impact on her as well haha. oh well. bball and my skin is my priority now ba. but lol i think next time sch team will only be a dream lol.
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