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haiz booking in again. today did nth much wake up at 10 still fug tired. then dota abit maple lo afternoon pack talk watch bi xue jian polish boots. haiz. now booking in the shit fucked up feeling is back. sucha nice sunday afternoon. last yr i prob be prac erhu then mugging now. in btw sms her. ya esp last yr this time. maybe go out mug with ken wong they all ba. then night maybe go watch some tv mug or play com. those were the days man. haiz now going book in ar. fucked up. wan die sia. zzz faster down pes me go clerk la come on plsss. hate booking in. c my hse jiu she bu de. last time myabe now warming up go run also. fuck book out i heck la lazy train. like in camp train nt enough like dat. wa c wil tan they all all 6 book in de 4 plus zao liao. fucking early sia last time if i so early i will die. they like dam jia lat sia no admin time no welfare no shit. schedule also fucked up. 17days is the worst sia they. go through 17days of stay out is really fucked up. heng i not command sch or else go taiwan i will go mental. haiz... dam sian la. i wan to fuck off from army leh. 1 yr 7 mths more to go. haizzz. so dam dam long sia. zzzz. well at least looking foward to labour day ba and next weekend maybe go out. hope. ltr kena crushed again and again ar. haiznow go watch bi xue jian ba pei pei my mum b4 she go work.

end of 3rd week

sigh end of thrid week nia. 7 more to go. here's a recap.
monday. went c specialist with mum. asked the spec to write me recommend down pes sia really did write. wa book out for that short period is shaung de. then when wan book in again feel total shit. . then go c mo lo think im up on medical board but no status wtf. scared i cant ooc sia scully cant become clerk. first thing is cos i no status scare cant ooc. then scared ooc le post back combat stay in. next thing is scared ooc le nv post me to 8-5 vocation. lol dam chui again.

tues onwards train lo. i no status wad so just train. now one thing less to think about cos i no choice just train with the rest. no need think about wad geng not geng cos alr going to geng le. getting numb. maybe is becos mon got book out once. anw keep getting fucked sia the toilet zzz.

something interesting happened sia. my bunkmates go msg dunno wad to her sia then i saw the reply wad she said i want to date her ar. wtf i c le stunned first time c her tok this type of jiao wei. then my fren take cont sms lo. sms until this sat supposed to go out watch movie. wtf sia i also dunno wad to do. then she said this sat she busy prepare interview then postpone next week. lol. wtf sia. anw next fri then c la.

then today morn wke up dota with pks then go maple le eat lunch watch bi xue jian then go out watch forbidden kingdom with kr wil tan olk teo bok cw. lol all botak sia. then ltr saw pks ler ken daniel also. lol ken wong looks dam weird with his specs and botak. after that go watch with wil they all nght also dinner with wil they all pang seh pks ler they all sia. shit two side need run jia lat. tok cok all the way lo tok abt army. lol y keep toking army ar nt sian meh.

hmm tml book in then will noe die ba. for now go relag alr.

so cui.

hmmm. another stuck at home book out since last week. nowhere to go leh. joseph they all say fri wan watch movie book out le all still at home lol.

k. things during the week. go 2 courses. wah lan wear my bro his mask ar really sux. cant breathe de la alot of times wanted fall out de. actual test also wanted to fall out the gas sia burn my throat like cant breathe. heng managed to tahan and passed. the other course also wear mask but much nicer. can at least breathe abit. then fri quite slack sia. stand by abit. book out quite early sia. haiz goin start pt liao lo next week.

now the main thing i keep thinking. is whether to geng anot. same thing. haiz still cant make up my mind one moment wan geng next wan tahan. maybe becos of the ssc night lol must bring za bor. maybe is wan go through shit with my frens dun wan like status sit there watch nia the feeling is fucked. also dun wan wait so long then can ooc then still have to wait posting. by that time the batch alr pass out le. then like im still there. if nv post clerk kena those stay in de. then so fucked up. like clerk so easy get one sia. then might as well dun geng. ard 8 more weeks and im out. just like wil tan they all. then got pride somemore. but stay in sia so fucked. worse is they dun down pes me. gimme status nia then status too long end up i recourse. then might as well go die. or end up in some navy vocation need go ship then confirm die stay in somemore may stay dam long. haiz. hope tml the specialst gimme jia lat jia lat then i can down pes. highly recommend me down pes. then post me to clerk. then song. but need wait so long. sianz. best post me out chop chop. so cui me.

k. then sat night sia. watch bi xue jian on tv ironing clothes halfway suddenly she com ask me wad is infantry. wad infantry do. then i say lo. then ask me wad signal is. then i say somemore ask her y ask she also dun say. then lastly ask wads ocs. ask her again still dun say. haiz. c le quite fucked i pissed off. said wadever u say. after that didnt speak a word le she. then she kia alr say bb i also din said anything pretend nv c. fuck it. piss me off nia.

haiz fuck nia the sibei sian feeling again. going to go back to camp alr tonight. fug sia feel abit like crap. got one stone again. c now the weather so fine bright and sunny i siting at home staring at my com. my hse not a sound bro go out work father slp mum preparing dinner do hse work. this kind of quietness sometimes i totally cnt stand it. esp when i goin book in sia. sian somemore my com is in one small room all walls stuffy dark and all. feel like crap. 2 weeks nv go out le sia. last time everyweek will go out de. go out do something. now stuck at home. not a sound. im goin nuts. haiz.

haiz

haiz very de sian sia. going to go in again. fug. today nv do much. wake up ard 10. wake up on com dota le. me pks hao. lose alot times today sia. lose until very sian. just win one match nia just now finally. in btw bi xue jian lo. haiz now the fucked up feeling of bookin in again. rly sux. at least heng i nt in those chiong sua de lifetime weekends then can book out. sian sia. no atmosphere today also. everyone doin their own things. no one to talk to. still havnt recovered from yest sia. sibei sian. wait le one whole day bai deng. at night c online c the nick sia sian diao. come to think of it ard 5 mths nv c her le. excpet a's results c a glimpse. her present think can dump it le. today wun c her online ba. nt much ppl online. all tekong or working. haiz. lol my sentences all very short. cos i dam sian ba. lol survived last week as look foward to that day. then fri feel nt bad sia. end up yi chang huan xi yi chang kong. sianz. tempted to try again. forbidden kingdom coming up. but. lets just fuck it. haiz like just wasted the weekend away. so fast man book out de days. sian sia ns mentally fug tough for me. haiz go watch some tv ba. or bi xue jian.

first official week of ssc

lol first week. wad can i say. still quite ok ba. stand by 3 times a day. soemmore i toilet cleaner. sux. haiz wish i was a bunk cleaner. first wek still nv pump us hard sia. think next week going start the pumping alr. toilet so hard sure die. somemore havnt include those fall in late and all. chin up only did once. next time 3 times a day. gg. throughout the week no time at all ba no time to think and all. my skin still goin haywire. jia lat. everytime march sweat like mad then skin jiu gg. lol thurs was her bdae. sms her happy bdae duh. then aftethat ask her weekend free not wan go watch movie. she said sat night free sia that night i quite happy. then fri i book out le ask her wan go where watch. till now still no reply. haiz. 2 possibilities. didnt c as usual or choose to ignore. prob the 2nd option ba. then today quite sian sia lol dissapointed. haiz c her online i also lazy to tok le. somemore her nick got that love thingy. means what sia. y will bo dai bo ji put that again. scully she got her target le. haiz i hopeless from the start de la. lol now abit noe wad wil felt like during the von period. is sian de. oh well. training no time to think about all this extra things de. which is gd wun think abt her. so today whole day waiting for her reply also dun have afternoon went out to find navy pt and admin shirt but dun have. whole time waiting and waiting. maybe she didnt c the msg sia and wondering y i nv ask her. but its too late. give up. but will it be for gd this time? who knows. 黯然销魂

sea soldier...

haiz this will be one long post. better make it more organised lol. and a emo post also lol.
k from the beginning. monday morn go camp there cont with rp course. wa song man can take mrt go there. means sleep once at home le. go there is heaven man can buy chocolate eat relag relag ar everything also easy. i remb first day book out ard 630. bloody late i also dunno y. second day more or less the same book out even later some idiot lost something then i go makeup training. wed book out ok. then i go run 4km run finish whole night legs sibei tired. then due to run nv watch ah wang only watch 15mins. thurs book out also cb late cos of that one bastard. play with us la. heaven will opunish u de. fri wah lan 4 pm can book out alr i think dunno waste so much time doing nth waiting. wun they dun realease navy ppl when we alr noe wad to do le. cb. the course quite ok ba. boring. encik is the man sia teach us alot things keep toking to us sia about life things i quite inspired by him. like role model lol. wun forget him de and some of the things he said. haiz this course is heaven man every day relag relag then keep buying chocolate to eat lol. gd life. still can book out go home relag relag use com go online watch bi xue jian. nv rly dota much. haiz this few days she nv online dam long le leh lol. haiz. every morn still can wake up at 530 slowly eat breakfast while slping then take mrt slp again. most of the time sitting down in air con room de sia addicted to air con alr.

saturday. morn go bball at fragrant wil quite late lol come down we end le then go back his hse rot ard dota abit. then set off go army mkt buy their stuff ken wong also came buy. then confirm with pks to go woodlands makan dinner. then go back wil hse rot ard watch ah wang watch finish. wa ah wang man is very touchiong watch second time still eyes will wet de. sian sometimes want to be like ahwang everything think simple can be happy always. nt like me think so much emo emo think this think that until ownseklf wan die. but cant help it leh. then after that go causeway makan walk there with wil emo emo rlag abit. walk the path the night air so coool so fresh smell so nice sia. wish everyday can be like that so zi yu zi zai relag relag no need rush here rsh there go army esp. haiz then go makan with pks matt and wil lo then walk ard talk abit the go home le. so fast one day just gone like dat. haiz. go home dota bi xue jian lo waiting she online also nv online. just her presense is enough le lol. then dota dota win one round shuang de then got the emo feel alr tok to wil and kr. we emo abit father mother kp me alr i close com.

sun, ie today. morn wake up go swim. nt bad swim 12 laps plus learn abit how thread water. though still quite sucky. end of it got the stupid vomit feeling again and think caught a cold. then pks ask wan go watch movie mah then i agreed lo. i wil and zhiheng swim finish go causeway makan mac then zhiheng go le then i and wil also go. wil go home prepare go out to movie again i ownself go movie. the vomit feeling very strong sia felt horrible somemore nose running like md felt tlike shit. wanted to just go home and slp sia. reach le go plaza sing watch movie lo 3 kingdoms with ken zw me hao pks. nt that nice la 3 kingdom nth much. just c liu de hua nia and all the fighting. watch finish le go arcade then wil also watch finish come arcade find us. bball abit score abit noob lol then go home le hao also need book in. haiz whole day quite emo sia dun wan go back army. then go home jiu pack my stuff then keep dotaing le till ard 930 then start to blog.

haiz dunno sia. dunno wan down pes anot. down pes no pride. if down pes then got those 8-5 de then jiu my dream come true. i badly wan go home lol. civilian life man rox. miss it. 1 month of civi life alr now dun wan lose it again sia. 12 days leave 1 week stay out 1 weekend book out plus this weekend. total 23 days. now going back to hell sia i she bu de. but wil tan kr ken wong also going in le with me. then like got more support. pks also goin air force shit place going through shit with me also. haiz dunno sia. now like ah wang like that got one rock on my chest cannot move away. wan cry cry bu chu also. haiz she dam long nv online le. haiz fang bu xia sia. lol best like wad wil say got another target then can help forget her faster. haiz go navy dunno got admin time anot the most impt thing. got admin time can sms ppl emo ard tok to ppl. feel better. haiz everytime miss home ar go back home also nv do much stare at com nia. but got family's presence its enough le. can c my home enough le. oh ya think my first 2 book out wil tan they all still in confinement sia. then only me and pks book out nia and ler also. like that also dam dam lonely. the feeling will suck man. make me even more emo nia. haiz.

oh ya her bdae coming also le. 10th. thurs. dunno wan give her wad i wrote not. dunno wan give her her present anot. still need call her out. haiz wan to just heck sia. but aso dun wan to heck. san xin liang yi. so long nv online le. haiz i dun wan stare at com too long le go out watch tv with my bro awhile. tonight need slp early sia tml very early need go le. wish i could just take a damn taxi go there. but so ex. haiz tml take transport go there alone the feeling. sux. last time got my mum accompany me or else i will die. that last book in ar is rly feel vry lousy. the worst. now this time also nt gd. haiz im so weak lol. haiz kia kia.