Saturday, May 31, 2008

windstruck

been awhile since i last blogged. everyday go home sia is much less painful then stay in. lol getting less and less disciplined le. at first wan every alternate day go run then run once nv run le. then in btw wan do some static end of the week also lazy do le. just play com nia. cannot.

anw. still adjusting to clerk life. slowly learning more about my job. even though havnt do much yet. next time ba. mon go do nth again.

fri. hmm come home play game as usual.

sat. morn go woodland swim. lol feel like my stroke deproved. during swim wan vomit more often. after swim nth wrong so nt bad. after that go woodlands makan tok cok lag ard. lol lag bloody long. go arcade first thing look at 2 za bor shorts wear bloody short. like nv wear. lol. nv c the face nia wasted wil they all got c. then go play jurrasic park think spam 5-6 dollar. then play silent hill. graphics nt bad. story line tink nt bad quite complicated dun understand. game play ok ba. then teo go spam 6 dollar on the sweet machine nv get anything. lol quite hard to get anything sia. after that go wil hse watch 野蛮师姐 ie windstruck. yest watch b4 le sia la damn nice. sweet part quite nice sad part very touching. the za bor also very chio can fight liu yi fei alr. dam touching sia c the girl struggle when bf died. teared sia watching i teared i c my mum tear alot alr lol. nice. go wil tan hse watch again nearly tear again. is nice de lo. after that go eat dinner then go playground emo tok with wil and kr. tok tok 9 alr then go home le. tok about ns and life ba. haiz ns. si bei sian. dunno how ppl can take it postively sia i still in denial lol quite. fuck la clerk alr nth much to ask for alr.

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k now cont tok cok with wil they all ba. oh ya ssc night. how sia dunno wan go not lol. scared go there awkward. but buddies all there. haiz next week then say. c if louis they all gt say anything nt. windstruckkkk. damn nice.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

clerk

k. last week. went back camp that day jiu noe my posting liao go become admin assistant. that time one last thing is dunno iszit 8-5. then next few days doing some paperwork. very suay that few days. dun wan tok too much scully charged. my hands ar cursed spoil everything i touch. lol thats y wan become engineer spoil it then fix it. anw fri go there first day. go mindef work sia. the more i cannot blog about it mindef all secretive thingy. all i can say is the atmosphere feel like im out in the civi world and working. not doing ns. feels very weird la. nv had this experience b4. somemore chiong for 5 mths plus alr only used to seeing training areas and bunks. nt used to seeing offices. haiz wad ever ba. 8-5 alr nth to complain le. next week then c how.

k. fri after "work" then go braddel makan. ssc buddies treat sia sergeant derrick also come lol. mostly spear 2 and spear ppl come. eat wad botak jones. nt bad sia. the serving is bloody alot. then tok cok tok cok until all zao lo. lol didnt noe i made such a difference sia. lol sergeant derrick is damn funny. haiz will miss them.

sat. morn go swim with wil kh and wil fren. nt bad sia first time swim vomit feeling nt so strong. only a bit. them swim quite relax sia nt shagged. then can faster then wil somemore. but he purposely swim slow la lol. dunno how swim fast leh tried but end up only slower wtf. then just glide glide lo cont relax. after that go home play heroes. then night go out again meet wil teo olk kr bok. relag awhile then go watch chocolate. abit gore and scary sia. got the ghost movie feel. but the fighting quite zai lol. za bor can hit until like that. somemore so small size. other than that the movie weird weird de la but the back when they show the process of filming is wah. all the injury and all. jackie chan is pale sia compared to them. after that tok cok somemore then go home le. play dota also lose. keep losing la dota sianz. then slp lo

sun. now. bloggin. dunno wad to write le blog. nth to write about lol. heck.

Monday, May 19, 2008

gone in 60secs..

yep bookin in... zzz..
gone in 60 seconds... or iszit 30? or wad? wth is the movie called damn....
as usual.

lol now too lazy type title le. trying play with the system c how it appears.
aniway haiz as usual booking in again.
morn wake up 9 plus play play pangseh the rest who dota. keep pansehing them dota sia dun feel like dota leh. but no dota nv play together. next time must alr cannot become loner. then play heroes until afternoon sia yest planned this afternoon b4 lunch 11 plus go run de but play until quite late so heck. afternoon pack pack then cont playing. bro came back then suddenly go out again. mum just go work le. father morn company call him go back work. now im all alone sianz. hate booking in that day to be alone. feels like so crap. haiz from 5-7pm the feeling is worst i realised. sun setting then c ppl goin home ppl eating dinner and all. sat c feels peaceful sun c feels so fucked. wed goin appt so this week is quite short. except the atp part. oh well. next week another long bloody week. dunno when they goin camp sia or is there camping at all this batch. post me out to stay out la pls by then. bringing yi tian tu long kopped from damo since sec 4 sia to read. or else too fug bored. wanted go bishan lib after goin matt hse to borrow bi xue jian de but hmm end up nv go matt hse. this weekend must organise outing alr too long nv go ks side. that is if they wan. shit ler confine this week.

haiz completed alr 5 mth plus of ns. the rest onwards doesnt rly count ba. traded my pride for 8-5. hope rly get it. haiz yest bball sia wil they all dun seem to mind or care i down pesed lol. in fact no one rly cares maybe except those in my course now. or maybe they dun say nia. haiz i considered very fortunate alr sia whole life rather smooth. exam always get gd de. lol or at least very impt ones. family not much prob bu chou chi bu chou chuan though no air con no water heater but still quite comfortable. gt alot of gd frens who dun pangseh me more like i pangseh them cos im too lazy recently. must change. ns posting also gd sea soldier. regimental nia. and lousy schedule and slping hours. but got 8-5 days so considered better then norm 5 day work week lo. then ooc le may become 8-5. now worried 2 things one is whether get 8-5 second is wether after 3mths will i be posted out somewhere cos my pes down pes only temp or so they say for 3 mths. haiz first one more impt ba. lol cui cui cui. fuck it. oh well. k the emo period over le. 630pm. time to bath. makan then book in. zzz.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

tired

hiaz today suppose to go matt hse. morn wake up 7 nia think so early wanted go slp again but scared late so go play hero5 again. play play play about time le then go shit still late. reach mrt forget bring atm go back take late even more. reach bishan wil they all say no court go whitley still full then go b4 shun fu road there also no court. pissed then go back yishun there full court think twice too shagged then stop le. then go northpoint eat ljs then go home. quite boring. go home jiu keep heroes lo. haiz abit no life again sia. last time always go out de go town and all. now keep staring at com liao. maybe last two weeks too exciting liao thats y lol. tml booking in le sia again zzzzzzzzz. as an ooc somemore. must remb to bring books read sia or gg. hope next week will get my posting. lol though i noe quite impossible. haiz. pangsehed matt sia lol. but also not much ppl go there also leh afternoon le only guohui there the rest havnt reach. go home c ken ler online wtf. boreddd. hmm more like siannn. haiz. so late still no one online sia. all go out shag le then go home str8 slp ba. tpday morn deep down noe i waiting for reply sia but none came. oh well. haiz now go watch some tv ba nth to do aniway.
haiz a weird and long week.
k firstly mon tues fall sick keep vomit and direhoea. keep my mind off emoing. wed run then after falling in going march alr suddenly called up say i down pes ooc le. wtf so stunned. then do ooc work lo. fucking sian. still need c sergeant lian se. and kena bullied by ooc somemore. fucked up. then c my buddies getting fucked while im doin nth. they do stand by i do nth. c them do this do that while im doin nth. damn guilty. and the look ppl give when they c im ooc. both trainee and sergeant. fuck la. even my own bunk mates dun tok to me so much animore. just 2 days nia even my bunkmate attitude change alr. wtf. post me out asap pls. and better be 8-5 or else ar i ooc wasted. alr no pride le if still dun get 8-5 then fug wasted. gave up pride alr. haiz. left 4 more weeks to poc sia. and i was looking foward to ssc night somemore. now even if im not posted out yet i also dunno whether i need go not. if go go as ooc wtf. then ben lai in performance with spear ppl instead prob wil be down there watching nia. haiz now worst is the feeling ba when c plt ppl and when they look at u. ji sian.

fri came back play heroes5. bro father go out left me i ask wil tan go out but i cannot leave hse cos only me. then kena scolded by wil cos pang seh. i quite sian that time so didnt fight back just get scold ba. ji sian.
sat also dam sian whole day stuck at home. while c ppl online become offline means they go out le. while im stuck at home. evening go out jog come back felt better ba. think is the wad endorphin or wad after exercise more high. whole night playin heroes 5 toking to ade and wil tan. nv even watch jacky wu. shit sia wasted. nv iron uniform also.
tml goin out morn bball then go matt hse warming. all the bros goin sia shiok can c all of them again. miss them sia. but now i ooc... not much face to see them lol. haiz maybe i just think way too much ba.

on a side note she suddenly msn say enjoy ur long weekend bla bla then offline le i playing didnt c. come out offline le. lol must be the letter make her guilty abit. i sms back bo reply lol. heck doesnt matter. zao jiu xi xin liao. totally.

haiz heroes 5 play until shiok finally can win after failed attempt once. then no time have to slp. better go slp now or tml sure late.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

haiz booking in in 30mins. i wan die le. feeling is full blown. T_T
haiz goin book in in another3hrs. 1 hr to makan and bath and all. so left 2 hrs. 3hrs b4 i leave civi life again back to camp. the bloody book in feeling sets in once again...

lets c... fri stayed at home taiji and maple. sat basically the same. morn wake up quite early sia then maple quite a lot. lol didnt noe got 2x exp and drop. no wonder suddenly so many ppl. then taiji alot ba. then evening also do nth taiji somemore. then 930 go watch jacky wu and iron clothes quite funny lol jacky wu. hmm missed bi xue jian sia. then after that msn with ade while ironing clothes. a basically pretty boring day. lol wil ken they all all in field camp so no need go out. oh ya morn go run also quite shagged. then evening go downstairs buy snacks that time wa lol c all the nieghbourhood lively alot ppl kids running ard and stuff suddenly felt emo sia lol. civi life. so relax and all. yet i can only have a few hours b4 im back in camp again so sian. then go back home from tenth floor look down suddenly feel world very big sia lol. so peaceful. just wan relax sia do nth. but time is short. lol watch too much taiji le.

sun. morn wake up watch the last epi of taiji. then suddenly feel got one hole again. haiz everytime like dat sia watch finish one series got one hole. then dling heroes 5 ba. oh ya just realised on sat the taiji song sang by ling feng sia also he the second main char also. no wonder the song quite gd. then ard 11 go causeway pt go watch iron man with ade. then after that walk walk talk cok then go back home lo till rite now im blogging. hmm today nt as awkward as last sat. last sat is total gg worst. oh ya iron man quite nice sia. cool. and funny.

haiz booking in again. while going home today thought that sian sia going to go through another 5 days again. so many 5 days alr past by le. 5 mths of ns life sia. dam dam sian. long weekend to look foward to ba. haiz so shitty ns. going to miss home and all once again. 5 mths lol like nv improve. zzz. bookin in sux.

Friday, May 9, 2008

short but seemingly long week.

yay book out once again. and this week book out from sembawang sia somemore at ard 1plus. reach home at 2 go str8 to toilet stomachache lol. aniway thats nt the point. the point is shi shuang de lor so early book out. feels just like schooling sia after sch le.

anw this week. is short and slack, but somehow feels dam long. mon half day. rsn day. then rest of the week training lo. wah sian my ippt. 2.4 11.30plus. shuttle run fail 10.8. pull up fail3. standing braod fail 212. sit up 46. fail 3 items sia wtf. haiz standing broad ar from bmt keep failing le. jc best consistent 220. lol ming xuan they all last time also stunned y i can jump 220 when i like lol abit fat. pull up now can do 3 quite often le nt bad last time constant 2. k currently i cant do 1 at all cos arms aching like shit. shuttle run sia. keep failing zzz. so cui. this week quite slack ba did nth much. swim rly felt like falling out sia the vomit feeling very strong and keep happenening when i swimming halfway. heng cat 1. think i scared of water thats y. felt gd sia got one day got some mini competitiion btw our sections la, then i norm very low key de ma nt those zai one, then this type get to be the 5 to represent our grp lol. feels gd to shine once in a while. lol just like in nj sia. i low key de then maths always get a then name appear on the board ppl will wahhh de then turn back c c the feeling is shuang lol. with ken wong also. and beating the normal zai ppl like ernest tay. and smart ass like jinghao. rox. then econs get top during prelims or wad. black horse sia. rox. every one wahh again even mr lee think he surprised sia i low low key de. too bad some other ppl dun give a damn.

next week soc sia. shit. im scared of heights sia soc owns me. lol im nearly scared of everything. water heights, insects, ghosts, wad else sia. think do 2 days nia. i hope. next week is week 7 lo left 5 more weeks. next week long week sia no break. which shld be norm la but our course like alot holiday in btw lol. but got long week end to look foward to ba vesak day. lol now happy sun book in will noe the feeling of shit liao. now like more motivated to train sia. maybe cos this week slack ba. next week c still got mood not lol. wanna pass my ippt leh.

lol last sat night de images keep flashing in my mind sia. though becoming blur alr so fast. cant even remb the face clearly alr. lol i nv look at her direct much anw. lol anw she alr double degree ntu biz acct plus nanyang scholarship. zai. i no where near lol. feel abit useless leh. but fuck it lol i nt that time wan earn alot alot alot of money de. relag relag jiu hao.

kk back to mapling and more watching taiji ba.. now all alone at home, got the lonely feeling like shit also. hearing mp3 to ease it.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

super awkward

lol today. holy shit. morn maple watch tai ji. after that afternoon go buy wallet then dhoby buy box. then say wan go cine. k i walk there. iron man no tix. buy newpaper wan find timing. no timing. k call cathay and gv. both numbers no reply. then decided watch forbidden. lan jiao she come alr super super awkward. super cold as well. i also havnt finish my stuff yet jiu anihow put in le ltr just give. sibei cold. nth to say at all. c her face so sian. i also dunno wtf to do. c her once in a while check hp. bu nai fan feel. i alr helpless le lol. wan dig hole and jump in alr. movie end le nv tok much. accompany to somerset pass her the box she give the very stunned face i also dunno how to say alr shove her the thing then fuck off lol. flop day sia. then go find wil tan eat at bk. then go home le. can tok normal alr. go home c her online. nt a word. nt a sms. lol. dam dam cold. no more le lol. no more. i scared le alr. k now go dota with wil. tml bookin in again. zz. ssc night gone liao lol. 可能睡一觉明天什么都忘记了。最好是这样。

Thursday, May 1, 2008

yaya labour day

yay labour day to break the week up. k this week finally started pt. one word shiong. now im dam shagged. my legs think nt under my control animore le. lol if this continues think my next bball session i can run faster and tahan longer alr. which is gd. 6 more weeks to go and im out of here. haiz book out dayy was how to say nt on such a light tone. whole day kena scolding. haizz. they say discipline nt there. goin to giev us hell. sianz dun like that. some ppl just plain dumb de duno when to play when nt to cant read ppl face colour black like shit still play. gd thing is my section all nice ppl. and smart too admin time we tok cok play trainin time tok cok we cok serious we dun cause trouble. aniway starting to get use to the life le. except that booking in that day is still really terrible. book in le slp nv think much alr. every day i just follow through motion nv think at all alr also forget which day. haiz till now dunno when i can down pes. i seriously dun wan get posted to changi next time ar schedule ar i will cry. each book will be even more terrible.

hmm maybe the reason y i nt s emo maybe becos of her ba. cos this sat goin out. i hope. dun screw like last time pls. lol the credit goes to my frens who sms her without my consent. or else she wun go out de i wun even go and sms her. haiz now go bi xue jian.