haiz last week of rp course

haiz tml is the start of the last week of heaven le... abit sian sia... suddenly scared of sea soldier course le. dunno wtf will happen. still got soc and feild camp leh how they squeeze so much in 10 weeks. one week learn 2 gun ar. or one week learn all next week range. then still need swim and soc and one week got field camp. wtf sibei shiong. haiz dunno how man. dunno wan geng anot sia. haiz. now dota just lose again nia si bei sian. bi xue jian also watch halfway then have to iron my clothes. ohya just now got go swim sia stll ahve the vomit feeling zzz. then also nv go deep pool learn float stay in medium pool nia. haiz really wan to take the easy way out sia. but si bei lose face like that. she also will look down on me sia like tat. i also will look down on myself lol. frens also hui kan bu qi wo de even if they dun say. haiz. lol course havnt start i alr no discipline to carry on train on my own. tired sia. lol jst now i go initiate sia. quite dumb. lol. haiz i better go slp. watch some bi xue jian then slp. ah wang also watch so fast chiong finish also nt as shuang as catching it on tv. haiz. slp lo.

first day of ot ot.

lol today suppose to ot ot. same day as previous post for info just that now is night. today wanted to swim sia morn wake up sian sian wait wait wait then decide nvm afternoon swim halfway like want to rain want to rain or maybe it did i forget le so didnt go swim. then evening wan go swim alr realised father and bro both out gg. so nv swim. then night wanted go pay uni admin fee de then father go out bro havnt come back home again. lol. procrastination sux. so whole day cabaling. wa is quite jia lat cabal quite hard sia. abit like pko but got pot to spam. nt bad la. wa then at home watch bi xue jian. is shuang de lo. so many chio bu. lol wil tan jio me dota so amny times i reject all sia now he outside kboxing till tml. hmm.
she again inititated msn again. tok a few lines nia she reply so damn slow. dun wan tok then still initiate for fuck. make me feel worse nia. haiz. lol b4 she initiate i saw her online dam tempted whack. but nth to say. mei xiang dao she auto. lol if she next week inititae go out ar. i can chop off my head lol. better stop dreaming. haiz. hopeless de y i still fang bu xia. lol. haiz. she say gtg le dunno how long ago like 20 mins now still online wtf. lol i leave convo somemore. oh well. back to bi xue jian. tml better swim and go run. today whack one day of hand le

first week

wa cb sian man this week first day morn go there thought can go home after evening... then they suddenly say navy ppl must go back sia...... si bei sad si bei emo that time... anytime feel like crying zzz.... lol tears anytime can come outde... then is like very luan very confused sia no time must go back camp makan then need go home take stuff go back camp... that time fucking scared sia the sergeants all ar so fierce de nt like bmt like dat... very very emo and sad c everyone go home le i must stay in in camp.... the feeling is completely sux... heng still got my mum and bro helped me prepare stuff then chop chop pack then go take taxi in... wah that time really dun wan leave home sia very very de sad. then mum took taxi with me go there.. or else i will emo to death... one person take taxi so lonely so scared so unsure wad goin to happen... then next day also very emo for the whole day wan to die like that only think of going home nia dun wan do anything else eyes also keep getting wet... then keep smsing pks and wil tan and my bro... wed also the same each time they book out go home we need go back camp the feeling... is very sucky. all the while only thinking i want get out of navy i dun want to do this i wan geng. there discipline so strict sia everything also so strict sergeant tok to u like u steal his gf owe him money like dat treated like dirt worse then recruits when we first came to army. thurs then feel better le like got used to it like dat... thats when i start to think wheter i shld geng anot... dunno whether i can tahan the 3 mths anot... then i thought she can do so many jobs, pia so much for a level while i slack play com.. yet nv complain much like me... y cant i tahan this 3 mths as well. then keep thinking keep thinking wan chiong or wan get the hell out of the course anot. till now ar. haiz still cant totally make up my mine. if wan chiong i myself need to be discipline sia need train and all. will be very tough sia. will sacrifice things also. so ar haiz. then fri book out str8 away go find wil tan kr at causeway macafe ard 1030 like dat drink ice blend sit down there tok tok like that. lol my idea was to find somewhere quiet in the neighbourhood like some playgrd or wad then just sit down relag eat some tidbits drink some soft drink look at the sky lay down tok tok tok about xin shi like dat relag relag. mac the atmosphere ar like very fast paced like dat nt wad i wanted lol. then tok tok till 11 plus plus goin 12 le then take train go home lo go home i slack ard then they wan play dota by the time they ready alr 1 plus lol wtf i go slp le la. so now morn wake up le watch bi xue jian lol. wa the za bor really very very chio laaaaa. tang ning has been replaced lol my display pic. now still watching lol. think today all gone out le left me at home nia. wadever later beetter go swim trainabit. then come home better train pull up somemore. prepare for sea soldier course man. napfa gold $200 i wan to get it. is how much i wan to get it sia if really wan i will get it de. just like how much she wanated to do well. then really got 5 a's. lol maybe sia if first 2 weeks still can tahan maybe dun dopwn pes cont chiong try get sergeant course sia make myself be someone useful sia dun slack away 2 yrs do sth prove myself and impress her and make my parents proud lol. but lol im still me discipline i dun have alot. lol ren shi ta is my gd fortune sia. or else i will only think of slacking now. ke xi ah ke xi.

on another note lol during like thurs at night i still quite emo then ask her whether this weekend wan go out not lol. im nuts. then she reply only on fri night sia lol but havnt give yes no ans. then i lol as usual replied some shit then she say this week no time if i wan next week can go out as frens. then being dumb i said nvm next week then c cos that time i emo. wad a lousy reply lol. back to bi xue jian ba and all the chio bu ba.

day 10.

nth much today. at home wan ah wang ar also sibei lag cant dl. then fold clothes ar iron and fold somemore. then dota lo when wil come back. lol she bo dai bo ji msn initiate again. eat wrong medicine ar this few days. she yue msn ar i yue fang bu xia cb some more i keep testing ar keep getting rejected lol. yi ci you yi ci de da ji. better nt emo over her man or my rash will start again. fug somemore her bdae coming. i goin to guai lan alr lol. tml goin bball at 830 sia how to wake up lol. my both leg kena cramp still havnt recovered leh. then now no idea how go the camp lol. like first day of sch. sometimes during the day feel goin army nth la just accept it anw goin to wad sea soldier also no one noe wad is like sia so like goin special unit like that. some say shiong say say relag think wun die. then think if i can choose maybe will stay in camp sia dun go home clementi so far save abit money mum no need cook my meal also save somemore. but lol now at night i think ar i also she bu de home sia. lol maybe nt at tekong will be better. tekong sux lol. confinement sia. haiz hope all goes well. FANG BU XIA LA CBBBB zzzz. lol. im nuts. just be my gf bu jiu ok liao lol. pian pian bu ke yi. sadded. lol time to ah wang then slp. ahhh gei wo yi bei wang qing shui~~~

day 9

lol day 9 alr so fast... anw lol today. noe my posting alr. sea soldier 2PDF. wtf is a sea soldier sia nv heard b4. no one noes exactly wad it does sia but alot da ting da ting say sux. zzz. nt shiong can le la pls. i tired alr lol. k so morn wake up first thing lolc her online then zham alr tok tell her i finding my posting now wish me luck. then found out le tok a few more lines she go out le lol.

after that i dota lo ah wang dunno y load so fucking slow dunno y sia. dota dota then we went out go dhoby arcade first then go plaza sing buy tix for dunno wad movie havnt decided. then they way watch rule#1 i also bo bian just go. then reach counter they say left first row LOL yay missed this again shiok i dun like horror lol too afraid. then c got empress and warr the one got leon lai kelly chen hui ling and yuan zi dan sia i c yuan zi dan wan watch alr then we buy lo. after that got rot ard ps go carefour rot buy snacks then go up watch le. the movie ar fighting scene also so so leh disappointment sia thought yuan zi dan sure dam cool. but kelly chen is chio lol. the talking also abit weird weird de they. plot also so so very expected and cliche. lol basically this movie for fans only ba. after that go daiso lol rot ard wait wil to come then we go manhatten makan. nt bad taste like fish and co. pricing think around there de la. then we go arcade play short while watch pks lose fighting com marvel vs capcom we cheer lol ppl turn ard like we siao. lol. after that go home lo.

go home lol i alr thinking of her alr. keep thinking of her this few days. go home c her online sia internal struggle to zham anot i decided to wait till later ba hope she will tok to me. she really did sia initiate le then tok cok for awhile. then after that i started go mad lol jio her out go movie. didnt really meant it just try my luck testing her also play play ard. then c her response ar. lol very saddening. esp the last part sia. lol destroyed any remaining hope alr lol. i didnt have much anyway. after get back results ar jiu lose control le lol. now time to control again. lol now 130 am liao lo go slp slp. haiz sad so fast leave ending. but just take it like a man ba lan lan dun think so much endure like after 1st 3 months goin new class. lol trying to psycho myself. slp.

day 7/8

lol basically for day 7 i alr forget wad happened le just keep dotaing and ah wang at home. quite a sian life. lol oh ya thx to wil's youtube things i go tok to her again. tok tok tok. then at last part quite shuang sia. details hmm. lazy type.

k so day8. today morn wake up ah wang again then havnt watch much dota le. dota wil suddenly say he goin watch movie yuan lai is watch the china bball show i also wan watch de then i tagged along lo me wil kh geng liang wei qi go watch. lol the cinema ar totally empty except for one couple there watchin lol. y the guy take the gal watch this show sia lol unless they both bball or they think bo lang watch wan do sth funny in the cinema. wa the show is zai man all the dribbling how they qie pass ppl all dam nice. think ncier then jay chou bball lol. watch that all hand itchy and inspired alr lol all wan bball then we go aj bball since wil goin bak also and wen tao they all also there playin. go there bball lo bball until sibei shag ard 7. then 7 plus go back home makan lo then c this zinc send de email inside got wad story thing i c eh love story most impt is setting got njc student lol then go read le. abit cliche sia the story but still nt bad la quite nice. worse is they didnt put the ending at the back wan us go buy zzzzzz. then dota lo no chance ah wang lol.

zzz block leave ending soon liao. tml wake up noe posting le siaaa. exciting lol but this time posting is random leh nt based on ability like o's and a's results those type i like getting the results sia exciting ci ji sia. haiz uni till now havn apply army stuff havnt prepare sia. lol tml ba. and better fginish ah wang soon. lol cont discuss with wil his shit.

block leave day 5 and 6

lol so fast sia half the block leave gone le.... shit i feel emo again goin to unit... no more long holidays liao... anw back to blog.
day5. wake up 8 plus slp again wake up at 12pm wtf waste so much time. wake up le ah wang lo dunno got dota anot watch till 3 plus com suddenly hang i restart then the damn thing keep restarting again zzzzzzzzzz. spoil alr i sibei dulan sia waste my time i try to fix cannot then go father com watch ah wang. then 6pm like dat com fix father com home fix also fix ok le ard 11 then i start to install everything back zzzz install until 1am then let it dl maple. zzz waste whole day sia becos of the stupid com. in btw watch ah wang on tv lol even though watch b4 le wah watch on tv is shiok de the feeling compared to watch on com... if can every day 7pm sit down on sofa watch tv eat dinner jiu shiok... just like old times... lol emo le.

day 6. today wake up ard 9 plus 10 ba play one round dota then wil go out le. then whole afternoon rot ard watch ah wang as usual. damn nice sia ah wang. rox. then process continue until night dota one round with wil and olk own dao... final team score 50-10 sia wtf. then now blogging lo. sian lol is day 7 of leave liao sia so fast. think tml c the uni admin the financial assistance c how ba. then can go apply liao. then tml go fold army clothes also. sian sia at first want try nt to think so much think i can nt emo and accept wadeva they throw at me but now ar i abit scared alr lol and she bu de my civi life alr.. shit sia cannot emo too much. i think back how my bro do it sia he no one encourage him or wad more like he kena discouraged like mad cos his plt ppl suan him dota lousy play game also nv call him. i quite lucky le plt ppl got call me go out with them watch movie. my bro also endure all the shit no complain about miss home whatsoever. think i too spoilt le ba. Ler also nv complain miss home as much as i do sia everytime i book in emo de need tok to ppl. haiz reflect alr still cannot improve leh.

and now ar fug sia increasingly starting to think of her again shit. must press it down again. somemore her bdae coming i also dunno wad to do. haiz lol. go slp lo hope tml more meaningful ba lol.

block leave day 3 and 4.

hmm yest block leave day 3 nv do much ba keep ah wang dota ah wang dota lo. wa ken wong they all go nus sia nv tell me pang seh zzz. they say got tell me leh but i didnt noe. think i slping. yest think my runny nose quite bad sia so feel sleepy afternoon slp to evening wake up makan dinner play play lo. lol wan watch tv also nth for me to watch all nt nice. but c tv abit also shuang lol remb last time every day 7pm turn on tv eat dinner. now ar haiz lol. play play watch ah wang then slp le dam late. lol she got inititate msn but quite spas few words then kia liao. lol forget it.
block leave day 4 ie today. today morn wake up alr 10am le watch ah wang abit about to go run pks jio dota lol so fuck just play. play play then go out meet wil kr cw yk teo supposesedly go nus but yk wan change creative earpiece and wan go the hq so go jurong east there wal to the hq which isquite ulu also dunno how go there. reach there le start raining also rain quite heavily so we stuck inside then sit at the place wad proffesional audio de surround sound then got one big tv to test the sound system. sit there tok cok decided nt to go nus go lan instead lol. tok till time up c rain also stop le then walk bak walk halfway rain bo dai bo ji start again also ery heavy zzzz. take bus go mrt then go dhoby arcade wait for bok play the bball machine until high lol always high de that one. play till shag bok also come le then go lan lol lan until very high as usual lol. i lina sia keep shouting at opponent ie wil tan teo kr kh olk challenge them lol. very funny. think whole shop we fucking noisy lol i also abit paiseh but heck they also dunno who i am. lan finish go swensons makan celebrate kh bdae as well then go home then now playing com lo.
lol this few days like more xiang tong le xia. every book out like wan enjoy wan enjoy must go out must eat must play must do this must do that like do for the sake of doin sia also nt really enjoying. now do everything also nt enjoying sia. now trying to just relag and really enjoy wad im doin instead of do for the sake of doing though i also cant really differentiate surely whether i am enjoying or not. haiz now keep looking back at the past at the civi life sia thats y. must learn to look foward. nt easy but slowly learn ba. haiz but jiang shan yi gai ben xin nan yi. still think to much le fang bu xia. lol got one convo with her sia halfway tok tok then tok until she ask whether i still like her anot. shld have replied yes sia and c her reaction. i replied dunno zzz dumb shit. anw lol its too laaaate. lol go back play le tml cont think abt uni.

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day 2 of block leave. yest day of of block leave. yest morn go find rene for my medical letter, then i reach there he still slping zzz then wait for him to come lo sit ard then he come we tok abit cok slack around till 11 plus then go home le go home dota and all. dota dota dota watch ah wang xin zuan cos got tang ning yea. but abit disappointed sia tang ning act as a rich girl with attitude prob de so aiya. but nvm. then after playing go watch step up 2 with ah soon ah girl tim godfrey kenny peirera and andy. ah soon bought 9 plus de tix so we wait around go ps makan. wah i dam dumb i wan eat the indon bbq then i c this stall got indon word then i just go there buy but c c no bbq stuff leh dunno wad i thinking sia i thought maybe is somewhere else so i just buy wad fish set end up is cai fan nia wtf. then i look right then c the correct indon bbq stall zzzzz. sibei sian. after that go arcade play play. lol peirara go play those grab toy de machine spam dunno how much sia. he lucky first few tries got one alr then got one mickey mouse he make the grabber thing spoil lol the thing dislocated then hit the toy then toy drop lol. after that no luck alr. then godfrey come we go kfc there wait i play kenny psp wah got god of war sia now dam tempted buy psp alr. quite fun but screen dam small leh. then time up go watch lo. bascially the movie nth much except c them dance dance dance lo. then go home le.
now for day 2. morn wan watch ah wang then tudou down zzz. then go dl maple lol play like 4% nia wan slp le. then wan watch ratatouille then load so slow zzz then go play td these type of game slack around. now nth to do so blog lo.

POP lo

lol wanted to cont blogging from last week de a level post but forget wad i wan say le. anw POP lo!!! up rank alr sia become private. lol i c alot ppl like very happy sia got the 12 days leave. i also happy la but nt so happy sia. 12 days leave... then life as men... today ar i go home c my home... think 12 days stay at home le then when go unit how to go sia.. used to home alr tell me go camp again i will die.... my bro also say i think too much... haiz cant help it. haiz bmt is the slack days man dunno life next time will how. make bonds alr.. even though i dun like alot of ppl in my platoon lol... alot of idiots and all la. lol this few days ar my rash going haywire sia little bit itch like mad. maybe cos after a's ar c her alr start to think about her shit abit ar then unstable alr. seriously think my rash due to i think abt her one lo lol. the timing is there my itch start when started all the shit. now home sweet home lo.. oh ya sia still havnt decide go which uni which course keep procrstinating lol. then my camp stuff also havnt unpck havnt arrange havnt wash also keep procrastinating. think tml must go unpack alr then shun bian think about uni. lol just now finally watched DeathNote2le... nt that nice anw. then i saw dunno where c think they going show ah wang xin zuan on tv then saw tang ning inside sia.... tang ning leh lol...she asked b4 y i put her pic as my display pic i replied is my gf then she said gd for me lol...wad a sian reply... anw wah lau cannot watch on weekdays sianzzz... so now watching on tudou lol. wa and got another new jin yong series sia bi xue jian produced in china like shen diao that type sia i also wan watch think also cannot... settle on tudou liao lol. haiz now cont watching ba for now nth much to blog about yet lol. or maybe is i sian of blogging liao lol.

a levels....

lol i now left 18mins to blog but i got aot of thoughts sia. k first thing is fom last week. hmm that week quite slack but lack of sleep nearly fell asleep and fell down during a parade lol luck i woke up in time to save myself. k nt much liao. fri afternoon book out to take results wah lau eh reach pasir ris at 230 i alr du lan liao. taking the bus to interchange that time fren already calling me le where am i where am i i still in bus they going to sch le. then i heck care just took bus home to put my stuff and change at 253pm ler call me say taking results le i still on my way home. then ken wong call again tell me to take blazer or else cannot take the results back heng sia or i go there do nothing alr. at 4 plus i reach nj le. wah the feeling sia hard to describe. reach the bus stop alight, c the ppl there, remb how last time every morn i drag my sorry corpse to sch, walk here to take bus home, c the nj students and the uniform, the pe shirt everything. then walk in sch, c xiao xi dan hong shanly lol. so qiao. they c me botak started laughing lol waved to them then carry on le. then reaching grand stand wa. i saw her lol. then str8 awa internal battle to go up to her or siam. then my instinct say siam then i wanted to walk to the closer steps first she on the further steps then i reach le lol saw her then aiya just call her la i called her she didnt hear call second time c her head got turn trying to find i also dunno is trying to find or wad in btw us got ppl. i waited for a second or 2 internal battle then decided aiya just fuck it. lol mission failed le lor didnt pass her her shit sia then now dunno how to pass her alr or still wan pass anot tempted to throw in dustbin but cost money leh throw for wad. then carry on walk up then jiu msg her i saw her walk out. reach hall saw matthew wil tay and think pks waiting for me at the stiarcase from canteen lol how they noe i will be there sia. i go in hall c pks they all then go find gilbert take results. wa long time nv c gilbert alr sia. then need go general office return blazer first then can take results. lol taking results that time saw ade she also come tok i forget to pass her her stuff also but heck not the point. anw gilbert guai lan sia dun wan give then say i got 2 kind of grades for my results then i noe alr i say A and B lor then he smile smile say so confident ar then he cont say 4 get same grade then i say 4A 1B la then he smile smile again say wa u so confident ar again lol then gimme then is really 4 a 1 b lol. shiok man heng didnt screw my results sia or else i will regret. gp b rest all a. then after that lag around then go dhoby makan swensons. in btw she replied i asked her wad she got she told me 5As wtf. str8 a's sia better then me lol. but she put in like around 10 times more effort then me so nvm lol. then we(ie pks me chin kiat ken ler wil tay) makan swensons saw xings then tok lol. halfway ler go back book in le. then after that all sian sian sia go arcade short while then jiu go home dota makan snacks rot around. oh ya she also initiate msn sia i also surprised at first i nv tok much just haha here haha there lol like wad she did. then i enthu a little more her reply getting shorter and slower lol then i lazy le lol just go dota. think that day she super happy get str8 a's then come tok to me ba. k end of day lol.

next day go ntu open hse i and wil play dota till quite late then go lol. she also got go sia but we go so late she sure alr go work or go celebrate like what she said yest alr. anw we go around look look me wil kr at first then found ken and bae and roy then found olk then we walk around then we asked the eee asst prof some questions then we tok there damn long sia. think i affected le maybe going study eee next tme think is similar to wad i wanted to study those physics and maths de engineer rather then deal with chem and bio. then after that makan alr go home lo dota dota dota then wa she online sia also nv tok i sian then b4 i go slp i go check check go ask her she no need work ar she reply need then i say i go slp le lol. shit sia no time to blog alr 8 le kia.

some regrets and reflections...bt nt emo lol

hmmm... maybe becos close to p.o.p. le and after being more used to army and no more confinement... begin to reflect more. first thing is a's results. though havnt get back yet, but hope and nervous didnt do properly. regret last time ar didnt study so well... still got some memory work i didnt noe.. wasted my time thinking about her.. trying to fuck it trying to jio her again... even knowing is useless...thinking of new ideas to msg... emoing here and there...end up i still fail to jio dao... only make her more awkward and siam me more... then didnt concentrate a's properly... quite dumb of me lol. regret 1. now regret 2. this maybe nt so regret ba i dunreally noe. halfway keep kena confine then keepthreatening to confine.. then mrale so low all fireto go command sch alr put off alr... then slacken didnt train for ippt alr once in a while do nia... now ippt soc all fail... sure o more command sch.. but command sch also so shiong go in dunno can tahan anot... then command sch also will get confine alot how to tahan... but nv go life as a men... also sian... ppl ask u u army do wad u sae as men... no pride at all... if officer or sergeant at least nt bad...lol... but then say command sch shiong... haiz think men keep going jungle also damn sian sia. dunno la so is only regret abit lol. 3rd is reflection. think keep hacking snacks these days ar abit bad sia last time jc life also nv whack de now keep whacking sia. maybe there no food too hungry, maybe want eat something sweet and nice, maybe becos there cannot eat snacks at will so keep wan eat but last time i noe i anytime wan eat also can, maybe last time got za bors in sch dun wan stomach too big esp got her also then now army nth le so dun care.lol wan stop eating i think i also cant do it de. so just c how lo. lol now to post about today.
today shuang book out wad. go home str8 buy choc buy ruffles whack as usual... abit bad like i said earlier... then realised i nv bring back my dirty socks zzz. anw use com watch i nt stupid 2... influenced by her.. watch le nt bad really can cry de but of course i didnt eyes wet nia. understand y she will come out all tears de lol. after that dou niu then go out with tim ah soon ah girl and sammy, walk walk wait for ah girl then go swensons makan. wa firast time buy so ex ice cream norm nv buy at all de buy the wad sticky choc 7 dollar plus but need rush for time so quickly eat also didnt enjioy zzzz. watch L change the world also quite nice more on the save ppl be hero things emotions and all that rather then all the intellectual battle who smarter all the plans all that in the original comic the deathnote. then movie end go home take mrt with ah soon. then on com lo play one round dota own pub so easily then now blogging lol. haiz just now think thinking of wan disturb go guai lan her not but i wan to fug care her also think think she also offline le. lol im such an idiot. nvm just try to fug it. c waste so much time a's if nv think abt her then sure got more time de. lol go tok to wil alr.