haiz a weird and long week.
k firstly mon tues fall sick keep vomit and direhoea. keep my mind off emoing. wed run then after falling in going march alr suddenly called up say i down pes ooc le. wtf so stunned. then do ooc work lo. fucking sian. still need c sergeant lian se. and kena bullied by ooc somemore. fucked up. then c my buddies getting fucked while im doin nth. they do stand by i do nth. c them do this do that while im doin nth. damn guilty. and the look ppl give when they c im ooc. both trainee and sergeant. fuck la. even my own bunk mates dun tok to me so much animore. just 2 days nia even my bunkmate attitude change alr. wtf. post me out asap pls. and better be 8-5 or else ar i ooc wasted. alr no pride le if still dun get 8-5 then fug wasted. gave up pride alr. haiz. left 4 more weeks to poc sia. and i was looking foward to ssc night somemore. now even if im not posted out yet i also dunno whether i need go not. if go go as ooc wtf. then ben lai in performance with spear ppl instead prob wil be down there watching nia. haiz now worst is the feeling ba when c plt ppl and when they look at u. ji sian.

fri came back play heroes5. bro father go out left me i ask wil tan go out but i cannot leave hse cos only me. then kena scolded by wil cos pang seh. i quite sian that time so didnt fight back just get scold ba. ji sian.
sat also dam sian whole day stuck at home. while c ppl online become offline means they go out le. while im stuck at home. evening go out jog come back felt better ba. think is the wad endorphin or wad after exercise more high. whole night playin heroes 5 toking to ade and wil tan. nv even watch jacky wu. shit sia wasted. nv iron uniform also.
tml goin out morn bball then go matt hse warming. all the bros goin sia shiok can c all of them again. miss them sia. but now i ooc... not much face to see them lol. haiz maybe i just think way too much ba.

on a side note she suddenly msn say enjoy ur long weekend bla bla then offline le i playing didnt c. come out offline le. lol must be the letter make her guilty abit. i sms back bo reply lol. heck doesnt matter. zao jiu xi xin liao. totally.

haiz heroes 5 play until shiok finally can win after failed attempt once. then no time have to slp. better go slp now or tml sure late.