so cui.

hmmm. another stuck at home book out since last week. nowhere to go leh. joseph they all say fri wan watch movie book out le all still at home lol.

k. things during the week. go 2 courses. wah lan wear my bro his mask ar really sux. cant breathe de la alot of times wanted fall out de. actual test also wanted to fall out the gas sia burn my throat like cant breathe. heng managed to tahan and passed. the other course also wear mask but much nicer. can at least breathe abit. then fri quite slack sia. stand by abit. book out quite early sia. haiz goin start pt liao lo next week.

now the main thing i keep thinking. is whether to geng anot. same thing. haiz still cant make up my mind one moment wan geng next wan tahan. maybe becos of the ssc night lol must bring za bor. maybe is wan go through shit with my frens dun wan like status sit there watch nia the feeling is fucked. also dun wan wait so long then can ooc then still have to wait posting. by that time the batch alr pass out le. then like im still there. if nv post clerk kena those stay in de. then so fucked up. like clerk so easy get one sia. then might as well dun geng. ard 8 more weeks and im out. just like wil tan they all. then got pride somemore. but stay in sia so fucked. worse is they dun down pes me. gimme status nia then status too long end up i recourse. then might as well go die. or end up in some navy vocation need go ship then confirm die stay in somemore may stay dam long. haiz. hope tml the specialst gimme jia lat jia lat then i can down pes. highly recommend me down pes. then post me to clerk. then song. but need wait so long. sianz. best post me out chop chop. so cui me.

k. then sat night sia. watch bi xue jian on tv ironing clothes halfway suddenly she com ask me wad is infantry. wad infantry do. then i say lo. then ask me wad signal is. then i say somemore ask her y ask she also dun say. then lastly ask wads ocs. ask her again still dun say. haiz. c le quite fucked i pissed off. said wadever u say. after that didnt speak a word le she. then she kia alr say bb i also din said anything pretend nv c. fuck it. piss me off nia.

haiz fuck nia the sibei sian feeling again. going to go back to camp alr tonight. fug sia feel abit like crap. got one stone again. c now the weather so fine bright and sunny i siting at home staring at my com. my hse not a sound bro go out work father slp mum preparing dinner do hse work. this kind of quietness sometimes i totally cnt stand it. esp when i goin book in sia. sian somemore my com is in one small room all walls stuffy dark and all. feel like crap. 2 weeks nv go out le sia. last time everyweek will go out de. go out do something. now stuck at home. not a sound. im goin nuts. haiz.