wa cb sian man this week first day morn go there thought can go home after evening... then they suddenly say navy ppl must go back sia...... si bei sad si bei emo that time... anytime feel like crying zzz.... lol tears anytime can come outde... then is like very luan very confused sia no time must go back camp makan then need go home take stuff go back camp... that time fucking scared sia the sergeants all ar so fierce de nt like bmt like dat... very very emo and sad c everyone go home le i must stay in in camp.... the feeling is completely sux... heng still got my mum and bro helped me prepare stuff then chop chop pack then go take taxi in... wah that time really dun wan leave home sia very very de sad. then mum took taxi with me go there.. or else i will emo to death... one person take taxi so lonely so scared so unsure wad goin to happen... then next day also very emo for the whole day wan to die like that only think of going home nia dun wan do anything else eyes also keep getting wet... then keep smsing pks and wil tan and my bro... wed also the same each time they book out go home we need go back camp the feeling... is very sucky. all the while only thinking i want get out of navy i dun want to do this i wan geng. there discipline so strict sia everything also so strict sergeant tok to u like u steal his gf owe him money like dat treated like dirt worse then recruits when we first came to army. thurs then feel better le like got used to it like dat... thats when i start to think wheter i shld geng anot... dunno whether i can tahan the 3 mths anot... then i thought she can do so many jobs, pia so much for a level while i slack play com.. yet nv complain much like me... y cant i tahan this 3 mths as well. then keep thinking keep thinking wan chiong or wan get the hell out of the course anot. till now ar. haiz still cant totally make up my mine. if wan chiong i myself need to be discipline sia need train and all. will be very tough sia. will sacrifice things also. so ar haiz. then fri book out str8 away go find wil tan kr at causeway macafe ard 1030 like dat drink ice blend sit down there tok tok like that. lol my idea was to find somewhere quiet in the neighbourhood like some playgrd or wad then just sit down relag eat some tidbits drink some soft drink look at the sky lay down tok tok tok about xin shi like dat relag relag. mac the atmosphere ar like very fast paced like dat nt wad i wanted lol. then tok tok till 11 plus plus goin 12 le then take train go home lo go home i slack ard then they wan play dota by the time they ready alr 1 plus lol wtf i go slp le la. so now morn wake up le watch bi xue jian lol. wa the za bor really very very chio laaaaa. tang ning has been replaced lol my display pic. now still watching lol. think today all gone out le left me at home nia. wadever later beetter go swim trainabit. then come home better train pull up somemore. prepare for sea soldier course man. napfa gold $200 i wan to get it. is how much i wan to get it sia if really wan i will get it de. just like how much she wanated to do well. then really got 5 a's. lol maybe sia if first 2 weeks still can tahan maybe dun dopwn pes cont chiong try get sergeant course sia make myself be someone useful sia dun slack away 2 yrs do sth prove myself and impress her and make my parents proud lol. but lol im still me discipline i dun have alot. lol ren shi ta is my gd fortune sia. or else i will only think of slacking now. ke xi ah ke xi.
on another note lol during like thurs at night i still quite emo then ask her whether this weekend wan go out not lol. im nuts. then she reply only on fri night sia lol but havnt give yes no ans. then i lol as usual replied some shit then she say this week no time if i wan next week can go out as frens. then being dumb i said nvm next week then c cos that time i emo. wad a lousy reply lol. back to bi xue jian ba and all the chio bu ba.
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